okay i just got off work at belk. oddly enough jess comes up and is like were going out to eat you have to come! and i tried and tried to get out of it..but she wouldn't budge. Well thankfully when we were clocking out the girls we were going to eat out with canceled! THANK GOODNESS! haha so i was like oh gosh that sucks and i ran to my car!! That was such a close call! Miracles do happen!

Samantha

Also i'm new and i need friends so just message me, and hopefully we can help each other!

Its only like 9:20 in the morning and i'm about to head out to work. My head spinning as i'm thinking about all the things i need to do and things im not going to be able to have.....i haven't eaten anything so far today....its a better start. Its just so hard when no one understands and my inspiration is just down my a mile. Words of inspiration would help. Plus i work at a hair salon and I need ways to hide the fact im not really eating anymore? HELP!

 

 

Samantha

Today had just been the longest day of my life. I had to go the obgyn only for her to diagnose me with what i had a good feeling i had. I'm just so sick my life just going up in smoke around me and i have nothing to control. My weight is bugging the shit out of me. pos causes weight gain around your middle to protect your ovaries and i'm trying so hard to maintain my self control.

Plus mom is back in the mental hospital again and its just me and my dad. It shouldn't be that bad ....he wont notice im not eating. Well I hope so...

 

samantha